I am scared about me relationship. I think that it is falling apart. With my depression and anxiety I feel like I am loosing everything. The room is spinning right now and I don’t what else to do other than cry myself to sleep.Caleb is one of the few that I can truce and I feel as though her doesn’t understand how important he really is to me. I wish life were easier then dating and frustrating emotions, but at the same time that is what makes it so exciting.I feel so confused right now. I am glad the house will be empty again tomorrow I have been so irritable towards my mother lately. I want to be with her alone, just mom and me again. Samantha is in best breathing waiting for me to jump in to bed with her. I with that Caleb was spending the night. We have never slept in the same bed together and I am not sure what that is. He is afraid of life unsecured behind a mast of sexuality that is a simply a lie. All I want is for him to break out of his shell and be with me. I want to experience life with him, simply spending time with him makes me comfortable. Please Caleb come back to me.I hope there is no one else other there he is with. I know he is very attractive and I have not been able to evaluate his level of trust just yet but I know he is trust worthy.I have to go to bed. Night...