hello

i am on my way into adulthood apparently i am nearly 20 now but sometimes feel like the little girl who first opened this account its strange looking back everything ive done to lead me up to this point all the people that have come and gone all the places i have been, i am now living on my own i am loving it to be fair its more calming than the atmosphere i came out of before i am with a new guy he is not too bad :) i am starting to get a good network of friends together for the first time in quite a while i can honestly say for the most part i am happy the happiest for as long as i can remember anyway which is good actually its great ..... it sometimes does not feel natural like i am in some strange dream i will soon wake from and its inevitable that soon i will wake but for the here and now i shall enjoy it and go with it at least enjoy the little bit of bliss that i have here i will try to not look for an end its hard not to sometimes though waiting for the hard cold reality to kick in and consume me back into the darkness ... but like i said happiness for now, doom and gloom later :)