OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (srry lot of swearing but read it youll understand why)
i cant belive it hes bak why the fuck is he back i dont want him back why is he doing this what have i done to deserve this why am i being punished i must be an awful person i must have done somthing horrid i must be horrable i must be nothing i must be worthless
ok ill break it down a bit more the wanker i was with the wanker who couldnt take no the wanker i hate the wanker i cant bear to look at the wanker i hate the thought of the fukin wanker that raped me wants to get back into my life i cant take it. when hes around i feel like the girl i was when i was with him like i cant do anything. i want to tell him to fuck off but i cant im scared why the fuck does he think i want him there again i dont
its killing me hes killing me all over again i cant take it not again just not again im scared i dont no what to do he said he wants me back fuck that im not going back to him no way ARRGGHHH!!!!!! wat the fuck am i ment to do i cant stand the fuckin tosspot i want him to disapear away from me just go and not come back
he was with me and some mates when we were out he just turned up un invited i cant belive he fuckin came i havnt seen him for so lond and he just turned up why? why is he doing this to me. he says he still loves me how the fuck can he? how the fuck can he say he did you dont do that to people you love you just dont. arghh im soo angry probly more with myself for not telling him to fuck off
its happenin again omg how? how can he do this i thought i was strong i thought i was ok i thought i could beat this i thought there was a point to life finaly i thought i had a perpouse ovusily not or my perpouse is just to get hurt and hurt myself im weak i must be
i feel silenced about it too i told my mom what happend she didnt belive me i cant do this 
im on my own all alone and it hurts
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I don\'t know what to say but that you should be upset for sure.
I know you don\'t believe him, and neither do I. You NEVER hurt someone you love, no matter what, not like that.
I don\'t know if he\'s purposely coming back into your life just to hurt you or he really thinks what he did wasn\'t so bad. Either way, to hell with him. Avoid him whenever you can and make dang sure he knows you don\'t love him and are hurt. Make it obvious that he means nothing to you now and that you are not who you were then and will never want him in your life again.
Also, avoid any situation where you might be unsafe.
Stay strong and don\'t worry about the cursing, I would have too. Thanks for sharing.
hey your not alone.
I am here to talk if you need to k??
Don\'t let him get to you this is exactly what he wants you to do he want to freak you out to make you feel vunerable don\'tlet him get his way again.
Here if you need me anyway
Reen xx
Im here for you and your not alone!!!! ;)
Take a deep breath sweetie. Now, are you breathing? I hope so. You are strong. If you don\'t want him in your life tell him that. I know its hard I would be terrified if I was in your situation. Like the others said, don\'t put yourself in a situation where you are alone with him. Please don\'t think of yourself as weak, because you are not! You are amazing, and making tonne of progress. Don\'t let him undo that.
I\'m here if you want to talk.
HEY GIRL,WOW, WHAT TO SAY,SO SORRY HE IS PUTTING YOU THROUGH THIS!I WOULD BE A NERVOUS WRECK TOO.LIKE YOU OTHER FRIENDS SAID MAKE SURE U ARE NEVER ALONE WITH HIM.I CAN\'T BELIEVE HE THINKS HE CAN JUST WALK BACK IN YOUR LIFE UNANNOUNCED AND IGNORE WHAT HE HAS DONE TO YOU IN THE PAST.WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS?NOONE THATS WHO!JUST REMEMBER THAT!!I LOVE YOU AND CARE ABOUT YOU SO MUCH.HATE TO HEAR SOME ASSHOLE IS INTRUDING ON YOUR LIFE AND YOUR WELL BEING.STAY STRONG SIS!DON\'T LET HIM GET YOU DOWN AND OUT,I AM WITH YOU ALL THE WAY.REMEMBER YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO FEEL THE WAY YOU DO AND I AM GLAD YOU ARE SHAREING WITH US.WELL I AM GOING TO TRY AND MESSAGE YOU!LOVE YOU! CHRISTINE