hey ppli havnt wrote for a bit so decided t oupdate a little i had a bad turn thursday nite i felt like my whole world was going to collapse. id been in the house id felt ill so i was in bed most the day too and i was trying to resist cutting and i did well all day. but at the night i had a turn for the worst luckly my dad usually goes out an thursday nights and i go with him so i saw that as an escape. but no he wouldnt let me go i felt abandond and even worse. i couldnt take anymore i wanted to just die i was so bad. i ran myself a bath and calmed down a bit but still ended up cutting. i felt ashamed like i wasnt worth anything. but that was then this is now. i have someone i can lean on and rely on and hes always there for me no matter what i dont no what i would do without him well thats all i got to say talk soonkate