Today

Well, I was busy yesterday and didn't get a chance to do any journaling.  Today I woke from such a fantastic dream.  Couldn't remember it 5 minutes after I woke up, but I was in such a good mood.  I grabbed my cup of coffee, and just enjoyed for once being in a good mood.  I even gave the boys a double snack in their lunches. So then yes, the phone rings and I see it's my dad (smokaholic) on the caller I.D.  Well, I answered it and as usual I could just hear him taking a drag after drag from his cigarette.  Oh, but I held strong and just listened to him as he rambled on about something.  Then we started talking about the cost of things now a days.  This is when I brought it up.........I finally told him that I stopped smoking because it just costs too much.  He thought I was joking!  He said that he didn't believe me. 
Now, when I tell people on here that I was a bad smoker and that there was no way in the world I ever thought I could stop, well the people that even know me the best find it impossible. I mean everyone knows me as such a chain smoker, plus with my horrible anxiety.  No one in the world would ever guess that I actually could go a day much less an hour without a cigarette.  Well, because my father was in such disbelief, he did not say anything positive.  In fact, he changed the subject altogether.  That made me sad, but that's also lwhen I knew I shouldn't have even said anything.  Oh well, that was that.
I did jog today, and I almost made it all the way through my whole route without stopping and walking.  Damn.  I almost had it.  But I had such a bad cramp in my lower calf that I had to walk it off.  But wow, what a great jog, even the dog was breathing pretty heavily. 
Well, that's all for now!