I don't know what to say about today. I think I should lock my journals after I write this one. At least until I feel better. I think I have multiple problems. I think it's more than depression, anxiety, loneliness, ect. I think I am no longer able to let the past be the past, and am confusing reality and the now with the past. I am angry and angry and then I get confused. I have not smoked or drank, but I think that I will eventually. I can't live this way. I mean this can't be the way it's going to be for the rest of my life. I am so unhappy and even writing in this journal is no longer helping.
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hope, you keep writing, it is the only way i got through a lot. a lot i mean!!! and dont bail because it will always be there still. i know i had so much anger and a lot of rage as a child even. its not really all roses, my life is still a mess, but do you see counselor?? i did for years and years,and that is why i\'ve come this far like you said. trust me girlfriend you can get through. we are young. i have a friend she is 67 and goiing through the shit and she buried it for twenty years. so there is hope for you and me. it is all about helping others and that is how you work through your own problems. anyway that is what i\'ve found to be true. i visit with old people, one lady is like 97 y.o.!!
so take care of you, and thanks for all of your support, love you, cathy