Well, today is just the same as yesterday. Why am I so depressed? I cried again for a long time. I'm being mean to everyone in the house and I feel so bad about it. I'm mad, I'm angry, and I'm sad. I have no one to talk to and I'm not really sure I want someone to talk to. I took too many anxiety pills and ended up taking a really long two hour nap. Well it seemed really long, but I guess two hours is short to some people. When I woke up, I wanted two things. A bottle of red wine, and a cigarette. None of which I had.
My life sucks at this time and I don't know of anything that can make it much better. Why do I have to be so mean. I guess it's my way of pushing people out of my life. Ok, I have a headache and I need to just veg.
Good night.
My life sucks at this time and I don't know of anything that can make it much better. Why do I have to be so mean. I guess it's my way of pushing people out of my life. Ok, I have a headache and I need to just veg.
Good night.
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Remember, you are in the ultimate Spiritual battle between good and evil.
Evil will fight its hardest to make you feel miserable, put lies in your head and use everything it can to make you give up. Dont give up!!! Evil looooves addicts who are not using their drug/drugs of choice. And will do anything to get them to use again. I soooo know that feeling of wanting wine and cigs and thank goodness God healed me from the alcohol 100% He made me dealthy alergic to it. But the nicotene is yet to be solved. But I am soooooo proud of you for sticking to your quit through this viceous battle. Some people wont accept it, but try to tell everyone around you that you are sorry for being mean and grumpy and just plain old not yourself. Read up on adiction, get to know everything you can so you can inform them of what you are going through physically and mentally AND Spiritually. I wish you soo much luck!! Keep fighting hun!! It has to get better sooner or later!!
Peace and Love,
Allison