Well, today is just the same as yesterday.  Why am I so depressed?  I cried again for a long time.  I'm being mean to everyone in the house and I feel so bad about it.  I'm mad, I'm angry, and I'm sad.  I have no one to talk to and I'm not really sure I want someone to talk to.  I took too many anxiety pills and ended up taking a really long two hour nap.  Well it seemed really long, but I guess two hours is short to some people.  When I woke up, I wanted two things.  A bottle of red wine, and a cigarette.  None of which I had. 
My life sucks at this time and I don't know of anything that can make it much better. Why do I have to be so mean.  I guess it's my way of pushing people out of my life.  Ok, I have a headache and I need to just veg.
Good night.