Ok, day 3. First I'll write about last night. I had what you would call an almost relapse. Yes, I know I shouldn't have cigarettes in the house while trying to quit, but I did have 1/2 pack left from when I quit. So as my craving grew and grew, I just yelled out to my one son to come into the room. He comes running in and I hand him the 1/2 pack. I told him to hide them and when he gets a chance give them to his father to get rid of. I don't know why I couldn't get rid of them........I just couldn't. So when the craving finally went away (after I consumed a bag of chips) I was ok. I know I shouldn't eat when I have a craving, but I'm under weight and for now I figure it's better than smoking. My cravings don't seem to go away very quickly. They take about a 1/2 hour, so my temptation is just unbelievable.
Like I said from day 1, all I need to do is make it through day 4 and I should be good. This is much harder than it was to stop drinking and like I tell everyone, I was a really bad drunk. But I think the medicine during detox was a blessing, as well as God being there. There doesn't seem to be a detox from smoking. I mean let's face it, I'm on Chantix and I'm still getting cravings. I think that if you really are having a hard time with quitting smoking, then they should have an actual detox center. This is a very serious addictive drug that kills you, just the same as every other drug except that this one is "legal".
It's funny because I never thought nicotine was a drug. I always told my kids that I didn't do drugs. Then one day they went on a field trip to, oh I forget the name and they learned all about drugs and addiction. They even got to put gloves on and hold and feel a smokers lung (ewwwww) Anyway, they got home and told me that I was a drug addict, just a legal one. I felt horrible. Now I look at cigarettes in a different light, and I see how hard it is for a person to stop because that is what I'm going through right now. I am glad thought that my kids get to see me go through it. I hope it will be a lasting memory to them about addiction.
try and write more later.
Like I said from day 1, all I need to do is make it through day 4 and I should be good. This is much harder than it was to stop drinking and like I tell everyone, I was a really bad drunk. But I think the medicine during detox was a blessing, as well as God being there. There doesn't seem to be a detox from smoking. I mean let's face it, I'm on Chantix and I'm still getting cravings. I think that if you really are having a hard time with quitting smoking, then they should have an actual detox center. This is a very serious addictive drug that kills you, just the same as every other drug except that this one is "legal".
It's funny because I never thought nicotine was a drug. I always told my kids that I didn't do drugs. Then one day they went on a field trip to, oh I forget the name and they learned all about drugs and addiction. They even got to put gloves on and hold and feel a smokers lung (ewwwww) Anyway, they got home and told me that I was a drug addict, just a legal one. I felt horrible. Now I look at cigarettes in a different light, and I see how hard it is for a person to stop because that is what I'm going through right now. I am glad thought that my kids get to see me go through it. I hope it will be a lasting memory to them about addiction.
try and write more later.
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