I am depressed.  I cried today.  I was under so much stress and couldn't find an outlet.  So, of course I smoked.  I used the stress as my excuse and my children just sat there and watched me.....probably to scared to say anything.  WTF.......why can't I just stop myself.  It was so easy to quit drinking after detox.   I was a bad drunk, I mean a really bad alcoholic, so I don't understand why this is so much more difficult? I think I drank more than I smoked.   I mean maybe if I could just get through the first seven days it will start to get easier, maybe even just one day?  I have nine cigarettes left.  I promised myself this was my last pack that I was going to buy for the rest of my life.  I don't know if I can keep that promise, but I know I have to try like hell to make that my reality.  Even though my quit date is not until Wednesday, why wait.  Why waste the money on one more pack?  C'mon chantix start doing your job......and I will do mine.