Ok, I did great yesterday. I had no cigs until 7:30pm. I wasn't craving one all day. I was so proud of myself until 7:30. Then for no reason, I lit up. I couldn't tell you why. It was like I was almost afraid to hit the 24 hour mark of not smoking. So with an hour and a 1/2 left to go, I smoked. I woke up this morning feeling so foolish and feeling like a failure. What was wrong with me? Why did I blow it. I mean maybe I would have just kept the train going after my 24 hour success. Who knows? I'll never know until I do it again. Time goes so slow when you are thinking about not smoking. I'm bored but it's not like I don't have anything to do, I just don't want to do anything, that's all. I have no motivation and have to admit I am feeling a little depressed. I'm mad at myself. I'm mad that I wouldn't let myself succeed yesterday. I was so close. I wasn't having a craving..........I just wanted to fail I guess. Oh, enough with it.