Just another day

Well, had much better will power today.  Decided not to start the Chantix until tomorrow.  I did pretty well at will power, but lost it when I got a call telling me that I lost out on a job.  No big deal.  I will again just keep trying.  I went through a lot of gum and mints so that I didn't smoke.  The only problem with all of this gum chewing and mints is that I don't have an appetite.  I guess I  never had a big appetite anyway.  My nerves and anxiety have always made sure of that.  Tomorrow is the beginning of the end once I start the Chantix........kind of an oxymoron isn't it?