Again, I am all alone.  The one "friend" I thought I had has abandoned me on this site, just like the rest of the people in my life.  That's ok, no feelings hurt, I'm totally used to it.  Again, I feel that I did not cause this other than take a little time off to get myself back together again.  It's weird because this "friend" abandoned me almost exactly a year after we met.  Even knowing everything I've been through and am going through she told me I no longer was a good friend.  But all in all, I do have to say that she was the only friend I had that I opened my heart to.  I remember the first time I messaged her.  She was so suspicious and wanted to know what I possibly felt that I had in common with her.  Besides our anxiety in common, I wanted to tell her that I felt the most common thing we had was our sadness.  I didn't say that of course because I thought it would offend her.  But we are just sad people who were just looking for someone or anyone that seemed to give a shit.  The little bit of happiness that would come our way every once in a while never seemed to last very long, and we just kept looking for a way to get it back because it was what we deserved.  I guess the friendship was doomed from the start because we just kept feeding off of each other's sadness.  I will miss this friend and wish her nothing but happiness and hope that she finds what she is looking for.   In a positive way I will look back at this as another life experience that has come to an end.