3 Steps forward 2 Steps back

It is still progress. It is still forward motion. Yesterday, I was very gung ho. I did yard work, cleaned, made some plans and made a new friend.
Today, I want to go to the cemetery. I never get the sense that he is there but maybe I just need to be able to think about him without interruptions. I don't know. I try to take cues from my body, my mind, my feelings and my spirit and do what I need to do to take care of myself.
I wish there was some magic to this, like some way our spirits could visit for a while. He will always be in my heart. I will always have these days where I need to revisit. Think back. I miss him.
Today will be a quiet day.
There is a future. But for right now, there is today. I will be glad of that.