3 months

My dear Luis today is 3 months that you are gone.  It feels like 3 years since I've heard your voice or saw your face.  I see you in my dreams.  You look real good in my dreams and I am thankful to God for that because your last days you look so frail and I didn't want that to be the memory that stayed with me I think God sends me this dream to let me know you are fine.  Unfortunately the ones that stay behind aren't  I still have this huge void in my heart and home.  I am an emotional roller coaster and people don't always get it.  They tell me I have to fight this and try to move on.  So I try not to burden anyone with my feelings when they ask how I am I say getting better I have some good moments throughout the day and bad ones.  I don't lose my faith in God that keeps me going.  As you know I also have mom who is 89 and not easy to deal with she has dementia and I can't go anywhere unless I get a sitter for her and you always helped me with her.  Well darling know that I am always here and you are still my soulmate they say that you are looking over me I hope so.  I have a lot on my plate. The biggest thing is missing you although you are in a better place I am not and I live with the thought of seeing you again when I meet my maker.  Our granddaughter is here this week which always helps.  Well Luis continue to rest in peace because you deserve it you were the best I guess God needed an angel and he took mine.
Your Broken hearted Lisa