3 DAY WEEKEND!!!

Thursday night, 10-2-08:  A 3 day weekend!  Yea!  I need one.  We thought about going camping but the whole business/building thing is up in the air.  I am sad on one hand....on the other, I am looking forward to being home an extra day.  We have been so busy.  I still have last weekend's laundry to fold!  I will have to put it back in the dryer to de-wrinkle! Today was tough, at work.  The male para I work with & I had a mild confrontation.  He approached me with some something about files.  Anyway, I still am not sure what happened.  I do know I said, "I don't care."  Meaning, I didn't care what we did with the files.  He is very thin-skinned and, I guess, thought I didn't care what he thought.  Anyway, I tried to explain to him that when I am frustrated I just have to compare whatever it is to losing Scott.  Then, I really don't care about the small frustrations in life.  I asked him why he assumed everything was about him.  Then he said something like, "Well, I guess when you are having a Scott day...."  I informed him everyday was a Scott day....just some are easier than others.  Anyway, it was upsetting just because I have all the nonsense I can handle.   And, one of our students had a pretty rough day.  He is more behavioral than autistic.  Anyway, he started the day out on the wrong foot and by 2nd hour was really in trouble.  Finally, by late afternoon, I had enough and took him to the office. I had done all I knew how to do.  It was just time to call the parents.   When he was between poor behaviors, he was pleasant to be around and worked hard.  But when he was having his moments, he was full throttle!  It is hard to deal with that and try to keep the other kids focused and calm.  We had a sub today, and although she is awesome, it messes up our routine.  I think that was part of his problem.  Adam lost his job.  Again.  I swear that "boy" has more trouble with jobs!  That is part of his LD stuff...social skills.  Although, this time, I think the work just wasn't there.  He will have to get another one PRONTO!  He has car insurance to pay for. Chris came over last night.  It is always good to see him.  He ate chili with us and visited for quite some time. The weather is changing quickly!  Tonight will be about 40!  I do not like cold weather!  On Sunday, however, it will be back in the mid-eighties.  Crazy! I am missing Scott so much I can hardly stand it!  I am so tired of this empty, sick feeling in my stomach.  No, I don't cry as often but it seems the ache is just as intense as it ever was.  The more time passes, the more I miss him.  I hate this!!! On an up note, I did post a couple of photos of me-awful photo, and two of my best friends. They were taken when we went on the house boat with one of Scott's friends.  They are so supportive of me.  I appreciate them so much!