2nd FET Results in Another BFN

I tossed and turned all night long anticipating and wondering if I should POAS this morning and so I did it and was not shocked in the least bit when I saw only one line telling me another BIG F*&^ING NEGATIVE. Yeah, big fat negative AGAIN. I kinda expected it but of course it still hurts. And yeah, I know it might be too early and beta on Saturday might surprise me with a BFP, but I'm really pretty sure here that's not going to happen. This makes 2 failed IVF cycles, 3 failed IUIs and countless other BFNs from just TTC naturally. I'm really starting to wonder if this is just not meant to be for us, pregnancy and having a child just might not be in the cards. I might need to rethink my life and find a new purpose for how to find fulfillment without being a Mother. Even as I type that I cannot accept or fathom that but I might not have a choice. Insurance will give us one more try and then game over. Feeling very very let down and sad. It just was not supposed to be like this, not for any of us! And to make things worse, my bff called this morning and although she means well, she really doesn't get it. Two very close friends this week who usually are very sensitive decided to tell me all about their kids' latest acheivements after I poured my heart out about how upset I am that IVF doesn't seem to be working for us. Why is it so hard for the world to be sensitive to infertility??? I mean, would you sit there and brag about how you are so healthy and fit to a person undergoing chemotherapy for cancer?!?!
Anyway, as always, thanks for your support. I swear I don't know where I'd be without you lovely ladies. I would be so much more lost and isolated than I already feel.....my gratitude for finding DS is unbelieveably huge. xoxoxo