2nd entry today
I feel like there is more that I need to get out, so a 2nd post is necessary. I wrote the earlier entry and am sitting her thinking about myself as a person and can't help but wonder why I lie about such stupid things.
I know that in the situation I can see that it's wrong to do, but I let certain triggers control my knee jerk reactions to lie. I had conquered a couple of them within the past couple of months, but stress as a trigger seems to be the biggest to overcome and has forced me to take a step back in recovery.
Stress is a rough one. I can see and hear myself telling the lie, but I didn't stop it. That is a tough realization for me. Stress is going to be very difficult and will take a lot of determination and self awareness to not let it control me and cause me to lie.
I know that in the situation I can see that it's wrong to do, but I let certain triggers control my knee jerk reactions to lie. I had conquered a couple of them within the past couple of months, but stress as a trigger seems to be the biggest to overcome and has forced me to take a step back in recovery.
Stress is a rough one. I can see and hear myself telling the lie, but I didn't stop it. That is a tough realization for me. Stress is going to be very difficult and will take a lot of determination and self awareness to not let it control me and cause me to lie.
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