2nd day of journaling, sence back on Sat 11/13/14 7.30ish p.m.

Using pink tonight, Watching the British Pink Floyd thing on P.B..S. Said i wasn't going to, too many cut in's, but the light show has me mesmerized. Ah my miss spent youth, anyway, woke up stupid early AGAIN. err. found some old gem's on Utube. Found the original trailer for the album and movie THE BEATLES YELLOW SUBMARINE. Wow what a blast from the past. Showing my age again. Trying to get some happy Christmas spirit, but it just remind's me of how debilitatinly poor i am. Was lucky just to pay the bill's, then food and stupid cig's. I am a train wreck at this time of year. Kid's grown, no tree for many yrs. That is more of a 3rd floor thing though. I did get my scholership back to the YMCA so i need to start going. Ever sence i got this thing and esspecially the Netflix, i have been doing NOTHING ELSE. I LOVE IT, AND ITS ANOTHER WAY FOR ME TO HOLD UP IN HERE. I really do love it. after i'm done here, i will be on there. thanks to my awsome nefew who shares, i can't even afford that, and it's pretty cheep. Oh well, waa waa poor me, etc... I am very happy and glad i have a wonderful family and social worker, so im ahead of the game in that way.Just feeling sorry for myself. OK i think that's all i got for now. may be on later. back to NETFLIX. xo