2009

here a new year has come and i am taking each day  one  by one ,wonder  how many others feel so alone ,mom  passed away on the 8th of  jan .of this year ,she hadnt been the  best mother,she had changed tho but never once  discussed  things that hurt  so  much in the past ,,,,but i sure miss her ,   then  its like  my grown boys are always  tearing my world  up .fussing  between themselves  them coming to me ,the 23  year old  says the 34 year old  wont hang out  with  him --the 34 year old has asthma to the  extrerme he works  full time and  just wants to go home and  not  do anything after a day at work .yet  he  depends  on his brother and us  to help him  he hasno car and it will be a while  before he can  get one ,so his younger  brother brother feels  he  should  do things with  him  or help him and my oldest  just wont and i am so tired of this  stress and  i cant win this one ,i am told i pick the oldest over  the youngest and its on ....what a mess ...have to go  my husband  just got up ...