I am an idiot! I like to say the ex is the idiot but it's me. He finally got on FB after 6 years of making fun of it. And he friends all my "our" friends. Then he requests me! I debate for a day before curiosity grabs my common sense And I accept. I spend the next few weeks viewing his photos. Seeing what he's up to. Reviewing his growing friend list and finally observing a new romance taking place based on photos and comments! I am an idiot. It is like a car wreck where I couldn't look away from the horror. And it feels like horror for me. As long as I think k he's miserable then I can be happier. But pictures that make his life look like one giant party hurt me to the bone. I know his drinking friends font have substance or morals I would ever respect, but he does seem to have way more connections than I do. And it makes me even sadder and lonelier than before. (And that's hard to do, since I'm already pretty sad and lonely). Where is the justice???????

Well I deleted my whole FB account. So I won't be tempted to see any of this again. I want to be happy. I want it so badly.