Today for the first time my mom and I as well as my younger sister were discussing our futures and all that and my sister opened up about how she wants 2-3 babies and so on. So I realized I had never really thought about it. I always knew I wanted a child or maybe two but not until a few years after I get married. But today I actually thought about it, I take 2 different medications for epilepsy, both that have possible side effects of infertility in addition I have ovarian cysts which as I've read also increases my chances of being infertile. Even if I was fertile, why would I want to risk giving birth to a child who may inherit epilepsy from me, and what if because of my list of issues (physical, health, mental, all of it) ends up in terrible condition. Why would I want to do that to my child. A the same time I've always imagined myself having a child. It's all just so complicated