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Today is my gamble free day 27. I feel alot more hopeful than I was at first. Sometimes I still get the urge to go to the casino, but I know in my heart that I wont go back. I just hate it when the urge comes over me. I know that self banning was my only hope of quitting . That is the best thing Ive ever done. The best mail Ive ever received came certified the other day saying that bans were approved. How could they not approve them? Anyway I feel so much better now and where my life is heading. I feel much more at peace with decisions i make these days.
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Lisa, that is all some powerful good stuff! I know the urges sometimes hit hard, out of nowhere. It is maddening. But you are doing so great. I am so happy for you, that you are at this good place in your life, and in your recovery. Love, Estel
hi lisa good for you! I am about a week behind you in gf days (21) and i too am starting to feel abit more hopeful and at peace with my decision to quit this insanity. look forward to staying gamble free along side you and the rest of my ds friends. huggs John