A New Day:)

I had the weirdest dream the last night of my trip...  I had a dream that I met the future man I would love and marry. I was handed this box by a worker of God's, an angel of sorts. I opened the box and white beaming light poured out of it and filled my soul with love. It was beautiful, fulfilling and healing... I felt filled with this light love and comfort washed over me. God said that I would love again. I opened the other box the original box contained, and in it was a message with instructions on what to look for in my mate. It said he would be flawed, not to look for a certain type as my efforts would be futile, and that the most important thing would be that he would be with me through everything. He would always be there for me. I could lean on him, and that he would lean on me, as partners. More than anything, he would be there for me. He would not judge me.
 
Then the dream shifted, and I was in a white room, the feeling of love remained. In the corner stood a man with a kind face. I walked over to him. He clearly knew who I was, but I had no idea who he was. As I stood before him, he leaned down and kissed me on the top of my head. 'I love you,' he said. I smiled up at him because I knew that he was telling the truth. And I accepted it!!! I accepted his love! And with that kiss, it was as if I had been awakened, and I remembered who he was. The realization that I loved him dawned on me, and I smiled up at him and told him that I never thought I would love again. I was startled and surprised. Then my best friend entered the room, and asked 'What about M (my ex)?' And I had forgotten all about him! Just like that he was gone from my memory.  I spent the rest of the night cuddling with that guy in my dream world. He was accepting of my life, supportive of me and deeply caring. Sensitive. He didn't care that I had my own life, in fact he praised me for it! I remember feeling relieved... He was far from perfect in my dream too, but they were small issues, things I could deal with. We had children together.
 
As I woke, He whispered to me, 'Do what you want now, because I am coming for you. It will be soon. SOON.'  He was referring to the things I wanted to do as a single person, and I have to admit there are some things I have put off trying and doing because I was moping around.  When I awoke, it was if the dream had been real. I felt healed, full of love and light. I know now that I will love again, that there is someone else coming. I know it like I know the sky is blue.
It may not be like my dream, but I know with absolute confidence and faith that I will find love again. :)
 
I am back home now. Last night was back to nightmares as usual. I think it has something to do with this space, my house. I have been through a lot here, and it hangs in the air. Today, I am off to do some cleaning and reading.
 
Inside, I am filled with peace. I asked to be healed, and I believe I was. How odd. I wish for everyone who does not believe in God to give prayer a chance. Even if you don't believe in God, only that the universe is bigger than we understand, just making that room is enough to allow miracles to happen.  :)