Exhausted!!!
I just returned from the hospital where I have spent the last day and a half supporting my sister. She was hit by a car while she was running. She broke her leg in two different places, erasing the possibility she may ever run again. Yesterday was also the day M (my ex) decided to do everything in his power to attempt to recapture me, my dog was injured and I lost a thousand dollars worth of new business. I could give a shit about the money, but I cannot tolerate my ex (attempting) to return to my life, seeing my sister hurt and struggling with emotional and physical pain, along with seeing my dog suffer.
I very rarely smoke, but today and yesterday was a case where I just said fuck it!!! I didn't care. The day wasn't all bad. I ignored my ex for the most part... Except for telling him that what he is stalking. I then ignored him for the rest of day. It seemed to work, at least temporarily. I have prepared myself for his eventual arrival at my home, so that I know how I want to handle it. My dog is shaken up, but safe. My sister is still able to walk, and she is also safe and loved.
I was out on a date with J, when I got the phone call from my sister. We had been having the most amazing time. We went for a walk along the beach and ate dinner as we watched the sunset over the mountains. Our conversation was filled with laughter and lightness. It flowed so easily and I feel respected as a human being by him. We have been dating for 5 weeks now, and still haven't done anything besides kiss. He knows I want to take it slow and respects my decision...
Anyhow, J immediately sprung into action and got everything ready for me to meet my sister at the ER, taking care of my dog, ect. He came to the hospital with me, all the while listening to what I said and keeping me calm. He was there for me every step of the way. He offered to stay the night in the waiting room, but I told him he should go home. He gave me a hug and a kiss goodbye and that was it! No guilt, no bullshit. He was there for me!!
My ex would have never done that... Everything was all about him. He never once came with me during a family emergency. In a way, my ex couldn't have chosen a better day to blatantly harass me. The comparison between the two of them is striking!! I don't know that I want to stay with J forever, but it sure is a nice change!!
I haven't slept in about 40hrs... So I am about to catch some much needed zzz's, before going out to conquer the world tomorrow.... Okay, my little corner of the world! ;)
P.S. My sister's injury has inspired me to keep running and pursue my own goals about qualifying for Boston! :)
I very rarely smoke, but today and yesterday was a case where I just said fuck it!!! I didn't care. The day wasn't all bad. I ignored my ex for the most part... Except for telling him that what he is stalking. I then ignored him for the rest of day. It seemed to work, at least temporarily. I have prepared myself for his eventual arrival at my home, so that I know how I want to handle it. My dog is shaken up, but safe. My sister is still able to walk, and she is also safe and loved.
I was out on a date with J, when I got the phone call from my sister. We had been having the most amazing time. We went for a walk along the beach and ate dinner as we watched the sunset over the mountains. Our conversation was filled with laughter and lightness. It flowed so easily and I feel respected as a human being by him. We have been dating for 5 weeks now, and still haven't done anything besides kiss. He knows I want to take it slow and respects my decision...
Anyhow, J immediately sprung into action and got everything ready for me to meet my sister at the ER, taking care of my dog, ect. He came to the hospital with me, all the while listening to what I said and keeping me calm. He was there for me every step of the way. He offered to stay the night in the waiting room, but I told him he should go home. He gave me a hug and a kiss goodbye and that was it! No guilt, no bullshit. He was there for me!!
My ex would have never done that... Everything was all about him. He never once came with me during a family emergency. In a way, my ex couldn't have chosen a better day to blatantly harass me. The comparison between the two of them is striking!! I don't know that I want to stay with J forever, but it sure is a nice change!!
I haven't slept in about 40hrs... So I am about to catch some much needed zzz's, before going out to conquer the world tomorrow.... Okay, my little corner of the world! ;)
P.S. My sister's injury has inspired me to keep running and pursue my own goals about qualifying for Boston! :)
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