28 Months Today

Dear Josh,   Today marks 28 months since the day you left me.  28 months of wanting to know why you.  28 months of beening angry and hiding it.  28 months of hurting and hiding it.  28 months of just not knowing what to do without you.  I am trying really hard Josh.  I know everyone looks at me and probably thinks "Rhonda is doing so good." If they only new the truth.  I try to stay busy, work, going to the gym, looking after everyone and that helps.  Saturday we will be having another clean up day for you.  I do not know how many will show this time.  The Pickle Festival is in town.  I remember that is where you met Logan.  I miss her too Josh.  I miss everything and everybody that was in your life.  I thought you would be here to at least see me grow old.  Instead I laid you to rest at the age of 16.  OH!!  Your daddy went and got a tattoo.  Yes your daddy.  He had your peace sign put over his heart with your name and dates along with FOREVER SIXTEEN.  I could not believe it.  Well I am supposed to be working so I better get to it.  I love you my Joshie Pooh!!!  Love, Mama