Happy New Year

Hello and Happy New Year to my DS friends!
Hope everyone had an enjoyable holiday season. For those of you struggling, I am hoping you survived the holidays ok. It's been a while since I've been on DS but I am slowly coming back after a much-needed hiatus. I want to thank you for the thoughts and the hugs these last few weeks. It's been a tough time but I'm glad the holidays are over and hoping, at the very least, that 2014 is a better year than 2013 was. DH surprised me with a wonderful Christmas gift - an emerald necklace. He knew I wanted to buy a piece of jewelry with our baby's birthstone. He wrote a really beautiful card saying the necklace was not to remind us what we lost and bring any sadness, but to honor our baby and the love, strength and commitment we have to each other. Sometimes I can't believe its been 3 months since our miscarriage. AF arrived yesterday, my third one since the mc.
 
We are still in limbo and unsure of our next moves. We want to be parents, but we aren't sure how, if, or when. Right now, we are still trying to pick up the pieces from our loss last year, and from the last 3 years of TTC. Its pretty obvious we will never have our own biological children, and until I can really accept this, we are not making any plans or decisions.
 
We decided after our long, difficult and sad journey, we are treating ourselves to a trip to Paris this April. I've been but DH hasn't and has been wanting to go so we decided, might as well add some more debt to our lives and try and enjoy a romantic week away.
 
Well that's about it for now. Not really much to say, just wanted to send an update and let you know I am still around and will slowly be catching up with all of you. I think of you all often and always send good thoughts and love your way. xoxo

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HopefulinNYC
HopefulinNYC

Thank you all for your comments!!!
AlicatG
AlicatG

Awww, DH gets a gold star for a sweet and thoughtful gift. I am sure 2014 is going to be better (years like 2013 how could it be worse!). I believe you will find the further you distance yourself from all the of the hormones and shots, the more you will be reunited with your happy self. Sounds like DH is a keeper so everything is on the up and up. It took me 9 months from finding out that I wouldnt have biological/genetic children to finding a new path, you arent shutting the door, just walking away from it for a while (itsallgood!). Hope you have a wonderful time in Paris, sounds like the trip of a lifetime!!
Andi60857
Andi60857

What a sweet gift, such a great idea! Here\'s to 2014 being a better year and a trip to Paris, nice!!! :)
deleted_user
deleted_user

Happy NY and welcome back :) Wow, what a beautiful gift from your DH! He sounds like a keeper for sure :)
Paris sounds wonderful after everything you two have been through. Why the hell not? Us IF girls deserve to live a little!! Here\'s to 2014 being a waaaaay better year. 2013 can suck it I say.
RoxyD
RoxyD

What a wonderful present. I think it was a great gift from DH and so sweet that he added the beautiful words. I think Paris is such a wonderful idea. I always felt that I didn\'t want IF to dictate our life in every aspect and refused to put things on hold. I\'m sure 2014 will be a much better year.
Glad you are back but totally get why you needed the time away.
hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user

What a sweet and thoughtful present! Wishing you much happiness in 2014. xo
vmarie3
vmarie3

What a beautiful gift from your husband, just beautiful!

Paris, how exciting!!! You deserve the romantic getaway.
Orriginal
Orriginal

Uh DH\'s card makes me tear up! Very thoughtful way to think of the baby this way. I am going to keep that in mind on my sad days. :)
deleted_user
deleted_user

What a sweet story. Sounds like your 2014 is already off to a much better start. Wishing you only good things this year!
MightyMel
MightyMel

Love your post! The necklace....so thoughtful! A trip to Paris sounds much needed and good job nurturing your relationship in hard times. I failed miserably at that and wish I had treated my husband better.
Mendolove
Mendolove

OMG Paris in April that is fantastic, I hope you have the best time! Love the necklace and the meaning behind it and yeah it is a really hard thing to get over the idea of a bio baby, I am when the time is right that you will figure out what your next step will be until then enjoy 2014, a new year with unknown possibilities!! XO
HaveFaith24
HaveFaith24

Oh wow the necklace sounds so thoughtful and kudos to hubby for being so sweet:) I am so excited for you both on your trip to Paris!!! That will be an amazing week and you both deserve it!! Wishing you much happiness in 2014! xoxo