Happy New Year

Hello and Happy New Year to my DS friends!
Hope everyone had an enjoyable holiday season. For those of you struggling, I am hoping you survived the holidays ok. It's been a while since I've been on DS but I am slowly coming back after a much-needed hiatus. I want to thank you for the thoughts and the hugs these last few weeks. It's been a tough time but I'm glad the holidays are over and hoping, at the very least, that 2014 is a better year than 2013 was. DH surprised me with a wonderful Christmas gift - an emerald necklace. He knew I wanted to buy a piece of jewelry with our baby's birthstone. He wrote a really beautiful card saying the necklace was not to remind us what we lost and bring any sadness, but to honor our baby and the love, strength and commitment we have to each other. Sometimes I can't believe its been 3 months since our miscarriage. AF arrived yesterday, my third one since the mc.
 
We are still in limbo and unsure of our next moves. We want to be parents, but we aren't sure how, if, or when. Right now, we are still trying to pick up the pieces from our loss last year, and from the last 3 years of TTC. Its pretty obvious we will never have our own biological children, and until I can really accept this, we are not making any plans or decisions.
 
We decided after our long, difficult and sad journey, we are treating ourselves to a trip to Paris this April. I've been but DH hasn't and has been wanting to go so we decided, might as well add some more debt to our lives and try and enjoy a romantic week away.
 
Well that's about it for now. Not really much to say, just wanted to send an update and let you know I am still around and will slowly be catching up with all of you. I think of you all often and always send good thoughts and love your way. xoxo

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ktk7779413
ktk7779413

Your gift from DH has me tearing up. What a wonderful gift. He sounds like an amazing and thoughtful husband. I\'m so glad you have him by your side. And Paris sounds awesome! You deserve it. Glad to hear from you. xoxoxo
shannonoq
shannonoq

What an absolutely beautiful gift! That is seriously one of the most tender thoughtful gifts ever. A treasure.
I am SO EXCITED for you that you are escaping the city - escaping daily life and going to PARIS!!! I never feel more alive and more myself then when I travel to another country! This will be so good for both of you!
xoxo
ps - so happy you are back :)
nicolerb
nicolerb

We lived a few hours from Paris at our last duty station but I only managed to make it there once. It was a nice time. We drove and it was a crazy driving experience. People in Paris don\'t care how many lanes are painted on the road, they\'ll make as many lanes as they want to get through!!

I will be awaiting new updates.
Jat092311
Jat092311

What a beautiful and thoughtful gift from your DH. I also hope 2014 is a better year for you. Also, I\'m extremely jealous of your trip to Paris!! My in-laws just got back and they loved it. My SIL and her family live in Germany (military) so we are hoping to get over there before they move back. You deserve this trip and so happy that you are going.
HopefullyWaiting
HopefullyWaiting

What a thoughtful perfect gift.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Happy new year. I am happy to hear you survived the holidays. That gift from your DH is so sweet and thoughtful I just love it. And good for you guys on planning a nice romantic getaway, that will be so fun!!
PolkaDotGirl
PolkaDotGirl

So glad you\'re back. I love love love the beautiful gift from DH. So glad you have each other. How exciting about Paris- you definitely deserve it :)
GirlAtHeart
GirlAtHeart

Very touching gift. Your DH is amazing.

You deserve to treat yourself. Paris sounds wonderful.
deleted_user
deleted_user

So sorry for your loss. What a beautiful gift from your DH. Enjoy Paris!
whimsicalfool
whimsicalfool

You have such a sensitive and sweet DH! What a lovely gift.

Enjoy Paris! I\'ve never been - only spent a very brief time in the south of France - and I\'d love to go. I hope you journal about your trip when you get back!
LMWT
LMWT

your DH is amazing! What an awesome gift and card! Have fun in Paris. That was our last city we stopped in during our honeymoon oh so long ago and I wished we had more time. I LOVE it! Have fun!
Mag333
Mag333

Time will bring perspective. Sometimes it helps to take a break from all treatments. Take care.
deleted_user
deleted_user

what a wonderful and thoughtful gift he gave you!!! YAY to Paris, your right....why not?! Esp. after everything you\'ve been through, you only live once....go for it!!
Nellysgirl
Nellysgirl

Wow. That was so insanely sweet and thoughtful of DH, and what a meaningful and special gift. Take all the time you need to get to where you need to be in order to decide if and what the next step will be. And PARIS! What a wonderful trip to look forward to! I\'m so jealous!
alanabanana
alanabanana

2014 will be better. My hope is that you find peace and make further choices on your journey to parenthood.
As for Paris, wow! How exciting :) do you have any ideas of what you want to do while your there? I want to hear more!!!