Day 24

Missed writing yesterday. Had one of the worst nights since I broke up. I met his flatmate when I took my son to the beach. She and I had clicked the first time we met and I think is she is a fellow empath. I have had no sleep and have a full day and evening planned for today.
I feel a sense of dread when I imagine Andrew coming back to me. I feel darkness come over me rather than light. I think however much I love him my self protective instincts are kicking in.
I have a strong feeling he will contact me. But don't know if I can handle it.
The day has ended a lot happier than it started. I went to the singles event and met a few people and had a great time. Hadn't felt that energised by other people in a long time. Came away with a good vibe. I am really glad I went and this means I can go out and do a lot more of this sort of thing. I am happy knowing that I can do fun things without Andrew. If he doesn't want me, then that is his problem. I will move on.