Day 20

Tough day. Couldn't stop thinking about Andrew. Had to go drop off some more docs at the Uni. Afterwards, felt really bad. Came home and activated my online dating profile. Realised I had a lot of trepidation about doing it based on what Andrew would think. Then told myself it didn't really matter what he thought. He has rejected my love, so he has no say in my life anymore.
I miss Andrew and if I had less self control, I would be emailing him the way I felt this morning. I grieve for the goodness in him. But I have to let him go. Otherwise all I will have is this on-going pain.
I am worried that by going online again, all I am looking for is validation that someone wants me. That would only get me into trouble. So have to be careful.
 
Have been reading a bit about Empaths. I think I am one and that might explain why stress got to me so bad and why living on my own is so much better.
Tomorrow is another day. Lots of people have read my new post. Have to plan next week's one now.