PA\'s

I've had a set back this weekend. I've been under alot of stress these days. I guess it was a combination of stress, being really tired, and the conversation I had before I went to bed that night but Friday night at 3:30 in the morning I had a pretty bad PA woke me up out my sleep and everything.I of course dealt with this on my own I didn't want anyone to see me not even the hubby. So anyhow of course this completly messed up Saturday and I clearly wasn't myself on Saturday. I found myself almost cancelling my plans I had planned for quiet some time  on Saturday however oddly on a side note they did get cancelled and boy was I ever reliefed it wasn't because of me. Well needless to say I was still reeling today. And when I brought it up to the hubby today he had nothing to say and than finally said he rather act like nothing happen. WTF I sure wish I could act like nothing happen what kindof of respounce is that. Considering all the other issues I'm having with him he couldn't  be there for me for this. So of course I was really hurt by this.  His reaction has caused me to have yet another PA but not nearly as bad.  I'm so torn I want him to be FAITHFUL, and my port in a storm and yet clearly this is the last thing he wants to be. I need to figure out something quickly because I hate these damn things.I would love to go back to before this happen but I guess noone can !!!!!!!