I haven't written in awhile. I actually don't remeber the last a time I made a journal entry. But I felt I should give it a try. I've been thru alot in these past couple of months. But everything seems to be slowly down I hope. Somehow I was able to hold it all together thru everything until now. I don't get it!! My parents moved which was werid because they moved out the house I grew up in as a teenager but I got over it. My Hubby and I moved we had lived in our old house for 8 yrs and alot had happen in that house but I felt the move was for the better so I got over that. My grandma just moved and boy that was hard because she moved out of the place she and grandpa had lived in lived for many years. I feel like we are leaving him behind even though he has past. I'm having a rought time with this and so is grandma. SInce my Mom is not someone you can talk too my grandma feels she can talk to me and lean on me. But I'm not the person I once was and I just can't be there for her like I once could.  Anyhow I was looking thru some old slides Sunday night of me when I was much younger and it was weird because I don't really remeber much when I was young. I'm told it's respressed memories. So perhaps looking at slides might not have been the right idea. Anyhow the slides took me back to a place I hadn't remeber in a longtime. And shortly after that I had some Paniac attacks I say some because I had these paniac attacks for the rest of the night. I'm still having issues with it today. I honeslty can say I will not be looking at those slides anytime soon. I'm trying to forget about them. I tried talking to my hubby about this but he thinks I'm being silly or something because he won't talk about it he doesn't want too. I'm hoping writting about it will make me feel better. Heres to to hoping!!