I haven't wriiten in awhile because My hubby and I have been so busy moving. We finally did buy a house and we have been moving for the past two weeks we are still living out of boxes. Thanksgiving was my three yr marker for these wonderful PA's but I didn't really focus on that fact on Thanksgiving because in the midst of moving I decided to have Thanksgiving dinner. Too be honest with you, You would think that I would be very happy these days with all the postive changes but that couldn't be further from the truth I haven't been more depressed. I'm so depressed and my PA's have been so bad especially this past week after things began to settle down and everything has started sinking in. I feel so bad for feeling this way and yet I can't help it. My hubby is of course very happy and I haven't really said much about how I feel because I don't want to bring him down. But I feel horrible I just hope this passes.  I was hoping that if I wrote my feelings out that I would feel better but no such luck. Oh fucking well!!!!!!!!!!