I'm not quiet sure how to sum this one up. I have alot on my mine these days. When I left my house this morning I was really caught in thought that later on in the day I found myself not remebering if I let my dog back in. My Dogs are like my children and so I raced back home which was a 45 min. drive to find I did let the dog in. I don't know why I just couldn't trust myself. I guess because the last thing I would do these days is trust myself. I been giving more thought to what the hell my problem might be about the moving and I realized that it's not really the move that bugs me so much it's the facts behind it. Honeslty my marriage has had better days. I feel guilty because I'm such a crappy housewife these days. I just don't feel like I deserve to move. It's ridculous. But honeslty my hubby and I are hardly talking. We do our own things and we hardly talk to each other because everytime I talk to him he gets this look of complete boredom on his face or if I even dare think about mentioning anything to do with the Panic he gets a look of dread.With that being the response I get I don't really race to talk to him. It just isn't good right now. Honeslty I dread the weekends because there all like slaps in face. There is nothing like being with someone when the last thing that person wants is too be with you. Oh fuckin well.
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I am sorry to hear that Hun I know that these are really hard on our families. I too have been really lousy lately thank god the man I am with now knows that I have to heal and he has been very supportive. I have only been through 2 husbands already but those were mistakes to begin with. The past couple of days omg I have been on an emotional rollercoaster one min anxious then crying and then pissy mood. I warned everyone in my family until this meds level out that my moods might switch like a light switch. To get mad over a fart I mean really. I pray that things get better for you. Big hugs
Just wanted to send my love and hugs your way. I am so sorry you are going threw this. if you need me I am here for you.
I find that if you don\'t suffer from a anxiety disorder it is very difficult to understand. I and some of my brothers suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. My brothers wife didn\'t understand at all. It\'s like pull up your socks and get on. It is not that easy to do so. It\'s as crippling as any disease.
If you need to vent I really do understand. People understand physical illness. They DO NOT understand mental illness. People are not informed and unless they go thru it themselves they just don\'t understand