Boy, did I ever have a bad night last night not only did I wake up once with a panic attack I woke repeatedly with panic attacks every 1/2 hr for about three hrs. It sucked like you wouldn't believe and I'm drained today I cancelled all my plans for today. I don't even feel like eating. I don't know what the problem is I don't know if it's because my mom feels like she need to compete with me and since my husband and I are trying to buy a house she went out and found a house and to one up one me it's  by a lake  and she can't afford it she will have two house payments because she can't not currently sell the house they are in until they fix it up and in order to buy this new house  they had to take from my dad's 401k and they talk of forceclosing on their old house once they get the new. Point being my mom will go pretty far to compete . But I don't even want to compete with her. My husband and I are at a point in our lives were it's time too buy our first house well really it's been time for awhile but anyways so we are doing every thing right we're getting a mortgage staying well with in our price rage we've been looking for awhile. My mom gets wind of what we are doing and just does it and can't honeslyt afford it. Or my problem could be the shape my grandparents are in they recently got into a car accident and it's my grandpa's fault he shouldn't be driving and he knows it so he has decided to stop driving and my grandma is in horrible shape two broken ribs and a serepated shoulder from her socket. So the whole family has been helping out because my grandpa has no idea how to househole duties. I just seem to be having a hard time with this because ever since the accident I've been spending alot of time over at my grandparents just trying to soak my grandparents up if that makes sense. It's hard to watch my grandpa realize he needs to count on others and yet he doesn't even have his where with all the time. It's so hard too see my grandparents this way. I mean it really brothers me.I took a day off from going over to my grandparents today I lined help for them allday and I'm just taking a day off from them it's sounds horrible but since the accident I've been there everyday and I'm not complaining but I need to just breathe for a day. I'm not going to feel like doing any house work today which will upset my husband because I've been depressed all last week because of weather change and than the car accident I haven't a chance to work on the house and it's in bad shape and I still can't do it today my husband is going to freak. I just have to regroup for a day. I hate this panic stuff one day your feeling great and the next day like cramp.