my face soing that i him excellent is a lie. i him really horrible i him having a rough time with my ptsd. i haven't been out of my apartment since march 1st. the doctor has me on sleeping pills that is also suppouse to help with the night mares its early morning before the kick in than i sleep untill late afternoon. my therpist is coming out on frieday. she want's me to go to the kansas va hospital were they have a program for ptsd. it is a niety day program don't know if i want to spend three months in the hospital but something needs to be done. i him issolating not execising,or going to my aa meetings. i him really angry i hate myself and wish that i was dead. so i think after my parent's leave and they have a bed i will go i will miss all of you at ds. i need to do something to help myself they make you relive the war experience. so it will be different than the three treatments i have at desmoines were they teach you how to live with it i need to try something differnt this time i don't think a fourth time with desmoines fourty five day program will help me. i will turn the face to the truth for once it will go to horrible with is the truth.
Replies
Dar-ling! Can you read these comments. My gosh. Yes, you must do something. Perhaps there could be a way for you to use the internet at the hospital and access Daily Strength there. Ask and find out and perhaps make it happen. I send you lots of love and support. Good for you to be so open here. I like knowing what\'s happening with you. Take care and know that \"this, too, will pass.\" Given time! OK? Will send this to you in Hugs form of message, too. Love & Light, Val
my friend...i think that you going to the hospital for awhile will hopefully help you .my heart goes out to you.it really does.my husband is vietnam vet also and suffers ptsd.it is hell and i hope and pray that you get the help that you so badly need..i will keep close in prayers and thoughts my new friend..your friend me included will be here for you when you get back......
I did a different version of that. it really helps ya function again. its like AA tho, its never really over its just not overbearing
My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry you are going through so much. I will keep you in my prayers. Blessings
I am so sorry that you are doing badly!! I hope you feel better soon!
Dear V2 - I feel you are making a good judgement call. I always think how can we goforward until we know where we have been. I always have a picture of you in this big rambly house with fields all around. I sincerely pray that this inety day stay turns out well for you. I will miss you and youtr kind comments - marillyn
I\'m so sorry that you\'re feeling so bad. I hope that you get the help that you need and are feeling much better very soon. hugs, Debbie
Hang in there. Things have to get better.
We\'ll miss you, but we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers while you are in this treatment program. Many hugs, Nancy
I will miss you but you need to try and help yourself. I really hope this approach will help. Good luck and you will always be in my prayers!
God bless you...if you\'d like some letters, if they will let you have mail, messg me your address. See if you can find out what it will be before you go.
I understand you feelings of isolation, depression. I go to the VA hospital in Omaha. They seem to have a decent mental health group. I hope you find the strength to get the help you need. Do not be self conscious about being open and honest about your struggles with isolation, depression, PTSD, or anything else. No one here is or should be here to judge. Here to help, advise and give a kick in the ass when needed. So, Kick it in gear my friend, take one step tomorrow to getting better. It will take time but keep the faith and keep trying! John