today went to the vet center and had my massage. their are two ladys who come from fort doage ia. on of the ladies loss her son in iraq she ask her self what could she do in honor of her son. she decided since she was a massage thypist that she would give vets that go to the vet center in desmoines iowa a massage once a month. than friends that are in my ptsd group went to burger king to eat and chat. we arrived their at noon and didn't leave until after two pm. i than came home went thou my emails on ds than put some sports cards into my computer. i haven't written anything in my journal in a long time. the first meds they had me on for my ulcer made it worse not better so called primary doctor last thursday like i was suppouse to if not better. he took me off those meds order another one the home health nurses brought them out to my home. with these new drugs and diet my ulcer his must better lot less pain. i took my pills with apple juice goes they have a  bad taste i use to take them with orange juice but thats bad for an ulcer so they are now having me take them with apple juice. i went shoping today and treated myself by buying me some apple cake it was on sale for two dollars and ninety nine cents. i had two slices tonight for supper and boy were they good. i don't eat too much but him eating again i don't want too but all the weight i loss back on i want to keep it off. since i him feeling good tommorrow night i him going back to the gym to swim. it's bad but one of the guys in are ptsd group his back using drugs. one of the guys ask what we can do for him i had to tell him we can't do nothing for him he has to want to get well and off the drugs. i didn't think at the time to tell them all we can do his pray for him. i wish all my friends would keep him in your prayers many of us came back from vietnam hocked on drugs and alchol i know i did think god deliever me from them i him going on seventeen years clean and sober by the grace of god so i know he can delieve my friend from it also. so please pray for that miracle to happen to a guy who served his country in vietnam.