Okay so we have like 3 weeks till we go back to the doctor for our consultation. I try really hard not to think about the fact that we really can't do anything this month. But come on I look at the calendar and think about the fact that I have to get off work early that day to go and than I will go back to work after that. I just hope it's a good day after that and not a bad one. I mean I just think about the fact that it could be bad and I cry all the way back to work.
I have told my mom and sister about the fact that we have to go back but they don't know when or the details but it's going to suck. I haven't told mom everything because she goes crazy. My sister and I haven't been that close for away but it's getting better. So she knows quite a bit but still not everything.
How is it that you can think about something all of the time! I mean come on why does it have to be like this. I just wish I knew one way or the other; can I have kids or not! If not let me move on and start the adoption process.