26 days until new therapist

my androphobia is getting worse. it was bad before but now when im at the meetings i cant look at any brothers or even listen to them on the microphone. and on a daily bases i get freaked out, heart beat races, i feel unreal, unsafe, scarred, and uncomfortable. my breath even shortens and i want to hide and cry. if it gets worse by the time i see my new therapist i will need to do EMDR. as you probably know i cant do that until i get more help. and i cant email my current therapist because she will not help until i get to my new one. i tried EMDR before and she wouldnt do it. so im stuck and afraid. i dont know what to do. please help.