so this is where it all happens huh?  this is where i tell everyone what no one in my life wants to hear.  things like my sister is addicted to crack and i dont think that shes going to get better this time.  our family is held together with gossamer threads and my sister is snipping them one by one.  her children have already fallen and while we try to help them up she is pushing at us from behind, trying to get us to plummet as well.  this is where i say that when i look at my sister i see a corpse, to me she is gone.  and this is where i say that i cry at night, thinking of her children alone and depressed, thinking of my mum being sad all the time....thinking of my older sister sitting in a grungy trailer with her hair a mess, her eyes rolled back, and gargling noises being pushed through numb lips with a swollen tongue.  this is where i say that my sister is not only addicted to crack, but meth as well, and quite possibly heroin.  its here that i tell of all the horrors of my life, of the lonliness and the anger.  of the time i hunted her down and pinned her against a wall.  this is where i say the reason she wont talk to me anymore....this is where i write that she gets out of jail soon...and shes coming for us...