If people give me accolades, why do I feel alone and in need of connection? Why does looking for someone give me a need for affirmation? I find it very sad that sometimes I forget that I'm worthy, deserving, and (hopefully :-( ) capable of finding the intimacy I seek.
Why am I in this rut?For how long am I meant to experience this?
I don't understand.
But I pray.
And try to wait, as difficult as it is.