Need someone. A body. Any-body.
Would be my first time. Want it to be special, but since my dreams are being dashed anyway....
Need it very soon. As in— months ago.
Now.
Now!
I'll take a minimum of no diseases and mutual attraction. Having trouble finding anyone, because I can't talk about the issue this way to people. And I'm too embarassed to ask someone straight out to have sex.
There are ways. They're sleazy. Can't. Trying to find some happy medium, but there is no happy in this; just despair.
Hopefully it'll get done with soon, and then I can move on.
And these postings can get more optimistic again, because I don't like putting this out there any more than you like reading it.