I didn't have sex with that girl. Close to it, though. Recently, I found out that my cousin is separating from her husband of 25-some-odd years. They have three children.I thought they had a great relationship. I couldn't believe what I heard.Now: Three cousins who are siblings; four divorces among them.Can't believe it ... A woman with whom I work has been speaking to me in a very belittling and disrespectful way. If I say something, it could make things worse, and I could lose a lot of money. If I say nothing, I will feel like you-know-what. I'm 31, and I never realized my dream of finding my life partner, the one and only woman with whom I would experience sex. Now, it looks like it may be with someone who had I-don't-know-how-many partners before. Someone who I don't even really like, let alone trust.I can't wait anymore.Don't want to.She has a great body. And I feel awful. The dream is all but dead. At the same time...... I missed having sex all these years. So much time that can never be reclaimed. When others had amazing experiences, and I waited on the sidelines. And to go out the way I anticipate.... It's not fair.