I feel like I'm different, sensitive, and it's so hard to find others who are sensitive... observant; subtle; intuitive... who can appreciate how I feel and what I believe and would rather talk to me than a flirtatious, less-sensitive guy. Girls who can relate to not wanting to put in your body substances that will make you feel sick or alter your mood or make you say things that aren't sincere or, goodness forbid, cause harm to someone else. Girls who also DON'T SEE THE APPEAL in loud, crowded parties with women who dress skimpily and guys who want to have sex with them because of the way they look, and outside of a committed relationship. Late on this Friday night, in an active neighborhood with young adults out partying or just flirting with one another, I feel so alone.  I don't want to be different now.I'm special. But I'm tired of not being able to relate to so many people in different ways. When it comes to drinking; when it comes to revealing your body to just anyone; when it comes to talking, and what you talk about; when it comes to trying to abstain from gossip out of principle; when it comes to intelect; when it comes to depth; when it comes to parties; when it comes to covering your ears when you hear LOUD noises; when it comes to smoking. It's so hard for me to find girls who feel as I do. I'm so sad. I want to cry.