I can’t take the lust I feel. My conviction is deep. But I don’t think I’ll be able to hold out. And besides… the chances that I would find, and then marry, someone around my age who is still a virgin (I'm 29)… the chances seem so slim. Do I say the heck with it and go to a prostitute, just to have the physical experience?And kill that part of myself… that is so precious? It goes against core values of mine: Having deep respect for my body; and considering women NOT as objects, but as people— and having deep respect for their bodies, too. (To say nothing of the issues of sexually transmitted diseases and pregnancy-- both of which I’m willing to take zero risk on.) And so, I am stuck. Rooted in something so very much stronger than hormones. So very much deeper. But being pulled and pulled and pulled more and more towards doing it…
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Don\'t bother with the prostitute. You won\'t feel better afterwards. Its just masturbating with someone else\'s body according to someone that I listen to.
Dear David, I read this after I sent you my last message. Otherwise that message would\'ve been MUCH longer and much more \"concerned\" in its tone. My dear brother (in God), here are some scriptures to meditate on during this ROUGH SEASON (and it is only a season, trust ME I KNOW first hand...I am 34 almost 35 and still a virgin, out of choice yes, and INSISTING on remaining one until the day I marry my soulmate):
Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
Again I UNDERSTAND--I AM LIVING IT JUST LIKE YOU ARE--AND I AM IN A PASSIONATE RELATIONSHIP LEADING TO MARRIAGE (we are taking premarital classes now so we are SERIOUS)...I want to show my beloved how much I love him in a \"physical\" way but we can NOT right now IF we are choosing to OBEY the Word of God which says \"not to fornicate\" (clear and simple). Please reach out to me whenever you need to we\'ll keep each other encouraged; DON\'T DOUBT GOD NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCES LOOK LIKE. I too thought I\'d never find the love of my life, and I turn around one day and there he was literally, and I\'d known him 7 years! PRAY PRAY PRAY David...that God bring your wife immediately because it is better to Marry than to burn as you know. God bless,
Demetria