Well, well, well.....Sunday Ava was sick-had a high tempurture and didn't feel good.  She was feeling better by the next day.  Now Brock is sick.  He didn't sleep well last night and was up about 4 or 5 times.  He had to have some water and use the bathroom.  I asked him about it and he said he also had some bad dreams so that kept him up some also.  He looked tired, he was tired.  The man that I am married to needed a ride to pick up a truck and take it some place else.  So I had to get the kids up and dressed to go.  I dressed Brock in warm clothes, took a blanket and let him lay down in the back seat.  He was feeling a little better as the day wore on and we were in a grocery store getting a few things.  My     "husband" made comments on how bad Brock looked-dark circles under his eyes and stuff like that-well, yeah, he had been up half the night.  My "husband" said that if any one sees him I was going to get in trouble because of the way he looked.  He then had the audicity to say "You are a bad parent".....those were his exact words.  My kids looked up at me with surprise that he would say such an asinine thing.  It really upset my daughter-it hurts her when he says mean hurtful things to me.  I will be leaving him-you can rest assure that.  I need the strength and fortitude.  I hate that about myself, being such a chicken shit.  I need to be assured that I will be granted custody of the kids-that is my main worry.  I will try to contact an abuse center and see if the things he is saying is abuse or do they just handle the physical parts of it.  I know some women have it worse and I hear that words hurt just as long and as much as a slap on the face.  This is all so confusing and distressing to me................