The kids and I went to a homeschool picnic today. I had a really good time as did the kids. I made mac and cheese-the kind using velveeta. I brought back a lot of it which is good :) I cut up little grape tomatoes in it and it is really yummy. Anyway, it was a joy to be able to talk to other adults. A couple of the moms even gave me a hug when I was getting ready to leave. I find that I need this kind of fellowship. I would like to join a "church". I don't want to join a traditional church-Baptist, Methodist, along those lines. I don't really believe in that kind of theology and I, in good conscience, could not go. I would be to much of a hypocrite. I wish there was someplace I could go. I think one of the reasons that I am overeating is to fill an empty space inside. I have a sucky relationship and maybe with other outlets I can finally have some joy in my life. I just can't find the right fit.

I am going to take today and just enjoy it for the pleasure it was. Hopefully there will be more joyous days. I revel in the simple things-nature mostly, music, and a favorite shows on TV. Well, I would remiss if I didn't mention the children. They can always bring a smile to my face. Nothng like the hug from a child....

"The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration."
- Pearl S. Buck