26 weeks and 2 days prego. I've been having more and more trouble lately coping with the loss of my son...i  am happy that we are going to have a healthy little girl soon, but i'm just hurting so much lately, and i dont know why i cant control it! the other night i was out for dinner on my bday and i heard a song come on the radio again, and it made me think of my son.... i couldnt help but run to the bathroom and cry....i later got home and looked at his pictures and started bawling. I screamed for him to come back, and i told him that i didnt want that to happen...that i wanted to see him RIGHT NOW! I was crying sooo hard that i had to slow down and breathe. it was sooo hard. I tried calling Dave to tell him to come home NOW and help me, but he didnt answer his phone, so i cried more until he came home.....i realized that all of this stress and pain must be hard on my unborn baby, and that i need to take things easier and just think about all of the positive things right now..... for her and for me. I talked to my belly and promised her that i would tell daddy about my pain so he could help me...because whenever i try to talk about our son i get so upset i cant talk....so i had to write a letter to him explaining all of the flashbacks i've been having...and the crying fits. He understoud and told me thast he gets the same way too and its very hard to cope, but he explained we have to look at the bright side for now...our little girl. So i'm trying to remember that and hold on.... because if it wasn't for this new baby and my fiance, i probably would have run away or even worse.... but i'm lucky to have him! I need to talk to him when i'm struggling, so he knows how i'm hurting, and casn help comfort me.....anyways......its been tough, really tough, so i will be working on being happy until the birth of our daughter. After that i know things are going to get easier....much easier...no more stress of thinking about stillbirths and miscarriages. The only stress will be from lack of sleep and fussy baby things.I cant believe we are 26 weeks prego....closer to 30 we get, and the more nervous i get...i just hope that all continues to go well.Besides the terrible back pain , i've been doing ok physically.  cant wait to meet this little girl!!!  Names i've thought of:MadisonAbigailChanel (yes....like the perfume!!!)