26 weeks and 2 days prego. I've been having more and more trouble lately coping with the loss of my son...i am happy that we are going to have a healthy little girl soon, but i'm just hurting so much lately, and i dont know why i cant control it! the other night i was out for dinner on my bday and i heard a song come on the radio again, and it made me think of my son.... i couldnt help but run to the bathroom and cry....i later got home and looked at his pictures and started bawling. I screamed for him to come back, and i told him that i didnt want that to happen...that i wanted to see him RIGHT NOW! I was crying sooo hard that i had to slow down and breathe. it was sooo hard. I tried calling Dave to tell him to come home NOW and help me, but he didnt answer his phone, so i cried more until he came home.....i realized that all of this stress and pain must be hard on my unborn baby, and that i need to take things easier and just think about all of the positive things right now..... for her and for me. I talked to my belly and promised her that i would tell daddy about my pain so he could help me...because whenever i try to talk about our son i get so upset i cant talk....so i had to write a letter to him explaining all of the flashbacks i've been having...and the crying fits. He understoud and told me thast he gets the same way too and its very hard to cope, but he explained we have to look at the bright side for now...our little girl. So i'm trying to remember that and hold on.... because if it wasn't for this new baby and my fiance, i probably would have run away or even worse.... but i'm lucky to have him! I need to talk to him when i'm struggling, so he knows how i'm hurting, and casn help comfort me.....anyways......its been tough, really tough, so i will be working on being happy until the birth of our daughter. After that i know things are going to get easier....much easier...no more stress of thinking about stillbirths and miscarriages. The only stress will be from lack of sleep and fussy baby things.I cant believe we are 26 weeks prego....closer to 30 we get, and the more nervous i get...i just hope that all continues to go well.Besides the terrible back pain , i've been doing ok physically. cant wait to meet this little girl!!! Names i've thought of:MadisonAbigailChanel (yes....like the perfume!!!)
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I\'m sorry you\'re having a hard time lately. Just remember your son is watching over you and your new little girl. Glad to hear your pregnancy is going well. I pray that you continue to have a healthy pregnancy and baby.
I\'m sorry you have been having such a hard time. I was like that too before Abram arrived. I missed Mia so much it was unreal. It will get easier though. Your little boy is looking down at you from heaven and wanting you to be happy for his little sister.
I love the name Chanel. I would pick that one!
First off, I am so sorry that you have been having a difficult time with dealing with the lose of your son lately. You are allowed to have those feelings sweetie! Dont hold them back because that will cause much more stress for baby than if you let it out!
On another note, I love Madison!!! Maddie, cute nickname :)
hey there! i like chanel. i also like the perfume too :)26 weeks yay!
Abigail is a GREAT name that is the name of my oldest daughter and in the Bible not many people think of that name being in there
I\'m going to suggest something to you, and before I tell you, I want you to keep in mind that he is now a spirit. He will always be your baby boy, but, now in spirit form, he is \"all knowing\", so it\'s not like he wouldn\'t understand. I suggest you make a special journal for your son. Write to him every day. Talk to him. He\'s still around you. He\'ll hear. I think it will bring you comfort and make you feel closer to him. Give it a try.