Hey all! I'm still nervous as hell and can't calm down. My hubby came home yesterday to me crying on the couch... He told me that we should talk about things and cuddle. i really appreciate his concern, and love that he is my rock right now. I'm very lucky.But whenever i try to talk to him, i start sobbing and cant get any words out! I know i need to talk to  someone, but i need to work on talking and not crying all the time. My hubby is also upset. He thinks that we aren't meant to have a baby...but i know he is just feelnig anxious and doesn't really think that. I also have to realize that these next couple of weeks to a month are going to be tough and test us again. We could be celebrating our little baby or going through the same nightmare again, in just the next 2 weeks. It's hard to think that this bliss could end soon! But i've got to stay positive. they say tha 60% of the battle is staying positive! So i've gotta win this! I was also wondering if anyone else had belly pics around 18 weeks on their profiles that i could look at... I'm nervous that my belly isn't getting big enough. Everyone tells me that i shouldn't worry about that, but a lot of them dont realize that last pregnancy i wasn't showing the slightest bit at 5 mos. and there WAS a problem with that. So i can't help but be a little...ok...A LOT anxious about that! Anyways, i should go eat something. Please take a look at my belly pics, and let me know what you think!!! love ya'll!!!